I WANNA ROCK

"I Wanna Rock"

I had a dream that I was helping Dee Snider (The lead singer from Twisted Sister) make an album... He had long black hair, though, and dressed like Slash... But, he still was Dee Snider.. Anyway, I was his producer and editor, and manager, ect... I was running around like crazy in the dream trying to get stuff done for him. The place the dream took place was kind of like a school/hospital - but no one else was in there except for myself, Dee, and a couple other people who I didn't recognize, but they were supposed to be in the band...

We mainly hung out in a room with glass walls... I remember we were constantly moving these futons around the room. I did not see one instrument... For some reason I had a bunch of cassette tapes and CDs that I kept playing for them, and asking them questions about the songs.. Questions like "What do you want to change at this part of the song?" Other strange things happened but what I typed out was the basics of the dream. lol. When I woke up this song was immediately stuck in my head. LOL.

Multiple False Awakening Nightmare - Hat Man & Haunted Room

Multiple False Awakening Nightmare - Hat Man & Haunted Room 

​ I had a crazy multiple false awakening.. I remember the beginning the most vividly for some reason... Near the end - it all gets a little fuzzy, but I tried my best to get it as accurate as possible..

It all started:

I was laying in bed - in the dark.. I look over and see this huge shadow of a man with a hat.. I suddenly felt this intense fear come over me.. I couldn't move.. I was paralyzed and freaking out.. I was struggling to lift my arm to turn on my lamp on the headboard, above my head.. I couldn't do it.... He just stood there... Then, I woke up in bed screaming - but into another dream.​

Suddenly, I appeared in this hospital looking place... This guy walked by and behind him was this man, dressed in black, with a black trench coat, and a black fedora... He was kind of big - buff looking..

 When I saw him - I felt uneasy.. Then, he turned and looked right at me - walked up to me and said something along the lines of "It's time to go"... I think.. I felt threatened and took off running down the halls of the hospital and he ran after me..

I ran up to this nurse and begged her to help me.. She just ignored me and the guy with the Fedora caught up to me... He grabbed me - lifted me up - and started to carry me down the hall.. I was screaming and kicking in his arms the whole time... He kept telling me something, but I cannot remember what. The fear that I felt was so intense..


Then, I woke up in bed, screaming, but in yet another dream... It was dark in the bed room. I felt kind of paralyzed again.. I wanted to turn the light on but I was struggling. I felt that overwhelming fear take over me again.. I kept wishing that the sun would come out and shine through the window..

Then, it switched to my Husband coming home with a bunch of pictures in frames.. He said that his friend gave them to him.. I hung them up on the wall all over my bedroom..

Then, I was waking up in bed again, but in another dream.. It was dark in the room yet again. I kept seeing stuff move on it's own, and creepy stuff in my room.. I reached up to turn on the light - but it wouldn't turn on... I jumped out of bed - panicking - trying to turn on the other lights.. None of them would turn on...

I remember bits and pieces from here on out..

One was of this little doll that appeared in the corner with a knife.. My Mom walked into my dark room to check on me and the doll with the knife ran after my Mom... My Mom kicked the doll and that was it with that.

Then, there was one point where my dark room was full of what looked like Black Eyed Children.... I remember that I started saying stuff like "In the name of GOD - I banish you from this place" I kept praying to God as well.. (In real life I don't really believe in God - but I consider it as a possibility...)

Then, this force field appeared around the BEKs and they started screaming, and their eyes started glowing, and they disappeared... My Husband came into my room and told me "Don't you see? They are not gone. They are just f**king with your head."

Then, my cats started to multiply copies of themselves.. I was freaking out because I was trying to get them all out of my bed room, because of all the weird stuff going on.. But, more and more copies of my cats still appeared!  I was freaking out!

Then, I woke up screaming but into another dream.. I still couldn't turn on the lights.. There was this skull on the floor with glowing eyes. It was speaking to me in a deep demonic sounding voice.. I started to say again, "In the name of God, leave this place!" The skull then melted and disappeared..

Other strange things happened that freaked me out.. Like when I walked out of my room to find light bulbs.. When I would come back - stuff would be moved around.. All on it's own..

I woke up screaming again - In another dream... I walked out of my dark room and into the living room.. Beyoncé was there for some reason.. I said something sarcastic to her and she got pissed and said "You don't talk to a rapper like that!".. I replied: "I'm sorry that your choice in music is rap with a silent C!"

She got pissed off and attacked me.. I took her down to the floor and she was laying on her stomach.. I was sitting on her back- pulling her hair..

Then, she started to speak in some other language and sounded very evil... I started saying the whole "God" stuff again.. "God, have mercy on this woman's soul and free her from evil"

Then, I woke up in bed screaming again.. You guessed it, into another dream..

I finally realized what the problem with my room was.. It was the picture frames.. There was something wrong with them... I had my husband and I take the picture frames out to the dumpster... That's all that I really remember.. If more pops up I will update this...

One thing is for sure.. Once I woke up in real life, the FIRST thing that I did was turn on a light.. Haha.. I left the light on and passed back out..

Empowering Dream

Empowering Dream 

In the dream, I was full of energy.. PURE ADRENALINE.  This guy that I hate was living in my Husband's room for some reason.. I walked in there and just started beating the crap out of him. I felt SO POWERFUL! He kept following me around for a little bit, even though I was hurting him.. But, I was NOT angry, I felt so HAPPY.. Throughout the dream I just kept kicking his ass, and laughing about it.. I would use my fists, and I would kick, and occasionally, I would have a whip, lol.

In the process of kicking his ass, I was running and jumping around on random things, like the chairs, tables, ect.. It all came so easy... It was nuts how powerful I felt..

Near the end of the dream, a few other people came over, and I got them to play this game, where we basically all beat each other up and ran around. lol. But, I NEVER got hurt.. The guy that I hate even threw punches at me and I remember laughing, because his punches felt so weak.. Throughout the whole dream, I was the most HAPPIEST, ENERGETIC, and POWERFUL person alive! It was just amazing.

I know that I was thrashing around in my sleep.. I kind of woke up a few times.. I opened me eyes for like a minute each time, but at the same time, I was still dreaming.. It was weird..

When I finally woke up for good, I still felt FULL of energy.. And, I had only slept like three hours! My speakers to my MP3 player had finally woke me up, making this screeching noise, because the batteries were going dead..

For some reason, I was craving cookies like right away, lol. So, I turned off the speakers, jumped quickly out of bed, and I almost ran into the kitchen... I felt like I could just run around the house and jump around on things like in my dream...

 It was freaking awesome.. I don't think that I have EVER felt that powerful in my life.. It was so vivid. I was so strong... Just amazing.. Gawd, that was an awesome dream.. It was so vivid and intense... Amazing.

Cat Portal

Cat Portal  

I had such a crazy dream... It seemed so realistic, but at the same time, I am having a little trouble remembering it perfectly.. But, this is the best that I can describe it.. It went something like this:

My Husband and I were driving around and I was filming things, like I have been lately... Then, we come home and I was in bed, in the dark.. I can't really tell if this was all in the dream, or if, in real life, it was sleep paralysis or something..

I was laying in bed, and for some reason, I thought that "something", maybe "aliens" were in the room with me.. I could hardly move to look around..

I struggled so hard to move my head to look around the room, but I slowly managed to do it. Each time I managed to move my head to look, nothing was there. I still felt this eerie presence the whole time, though.. This lasted for what seemed like forever..

Then, it switches to my Husband and I hanging out in the bed room.. I had my camera out and was getting some footage of the kitties..

Then, my cat, Baby Girl, was sitting on the dresser, and she jumped down.. When she jumped down, I noticed that her "reflection" was still in the mirror on the dresser!

Her reflection came through the mirror and jumped onto the floor! Then, more of Baby Girl's reflections appeared in the mirror, and started jumping out, one right after the other.

I was all freaked out. I grabbed my camera and started filming, and this just kept going and going. More and more Baby Girls kept jumping out of the mirror..

Then, I sat my camera down and turned towards my Husband and said something like "Are you seeing this?!". I turned back around and my camera was gone... I franticly looked for it thinking "No one is going to believe me/us if I don't get this on film!"

Then, I ran into the living room, and my Mom was sitting with this lady who was supposedly her friend, I guess. I said "MOM!! You have to come in here and look at this!!" I begged and begged for my Mom and her friend, or whatever, to come into the bed room to see all of the Baby Girls running around.

My Mom and her friend reluctantly got up and came into the bed room.. When they finally came inside the room, and saw everything, they were shocked! This part seemed so real, too...

In the dream, I remember thinking "This is really happening, isn't it?"

Then, I think it switched back to the whole "paralyzed/struggling to look around/feeling a presence while in my bed" type-thing...

Then, I sit up in bed (in the dream), and hear my Mom calling my name.. I walk out into the living room, and my Husband and my Mom were out there, and all of the rest of our cats had multiplied as well!! There were copies of all of our cats EVERYWHERE!

My Mom said that, when she said our cat, Ticken's, name in this weird tone, more Tickens, and the other cats, would appear..

I'm not exactly sure what happened next, but this dream seemed so real, as strange as that sounds.. For some reason I ended up waking up, in a panic, yelling "Moomm!!"

Electronics

Electronics 

I had a dream about electronics.. Actually, it was only part of a more complicated dream.. Which, I am not going to get into..

In the dream, I would grab electronics and cords that were supposedly not working.. They would turn on, and start working whenever I touched/grabbed them.. I kept doing this over and over, just amazed and weirded out by it all..

Eyes In The Closet

Eyes In The Closet 

I was laying in bed, like I was in real life... I felt half awake in this dream...  It was dark and I was staring at the closet.. The door on the closet had an opening near the top, which it doesn't in real life..

 I was looking at the opening when I saw a set of eyes staring at me!!  I blinked a little bit, thinking something like "Is that really there?"..

 I just kind of stared... Then, I thought: "Oh. I must be dreaming".. So I tried to wake myself up.. I got that pulling sensation that I get when I am trying to wake myself up from a dream.. Then, everything went black..

Then, I came to, and looked at the closet and those eyes were still there!! Now, I started to freak.. This situation happened a couple of times.. Then, finally, I woke up "into another dream", and I was still laying in bed..

 This time, instead of looking at the eyes, I looked at the wall next to the closet.. The wall turned into this dark alley, and I saw two people walking around in it.. Then, one of the people morphed into an alien, I guess..

 He had that big alien head, and a skinny body, yet at the same time, he had a pot belly.. He just kind of walked around and then stood there.. I was thinking. "Oh My God!! A F**KING ALIEN!!!??"

Then, I looked back at the closet and saw the eyes again.. I remember thinking: "Am I going to be abducted or something?".. I was in a panic throughout most of this dream.. Until, it eventually evolved into another dream, that I don't remember as well as that one...

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Here is the best that I can do with the Alien in the Alley..

EVILNESS!

EVILNESS!

*Note: This is yet another old dream. I have replaced one person's name and identity with the name "Cindy".. *

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It all started out: I got out of bed, having to pee... I was walking down the hall to go to the bathroom, when, my Husband, came up to me... I walked into the bathroom, and, my Husband followed me..

The bathroom was waayy different than in real life... Above the tub were tv screens that showed different areas of the house..

My Husband told me that Cindy had installed security cameras.. There was even a camera in the bathroom, above the tub, and the toilet.. I could see myself standing next to the toilet, but, I decided to pee anyway, because, I had to go so bad..

So, I sat down and started to pee, and, I then looked over at my Husband... His face morphed strangely, and, his hair grew long and black.. He then, jumped up on the toilet behind me, and, started to choke me...

I ended up struggling myself out of his grip, and, I ran into the kitchen..

In the kitchen, Cindy, her Boyfriend, and a normal looking version of my Husband, were all sitting at the table... In the dream, the table was at the opposite end of the kitchen... I walked up to the normal looking version of my Husband, and started to tell him that there was an evil version of him trying to kill me..

After I told my Husband that, the Evil version of him came out of the bathroom, and, ran up behind me. But, instead of attacking me, he quickly went in the other direction towards the front door... He looked at me and said: "I will come back for you Rachel!" Then, he evaporated into this black mist, and, then, disappeared...

I then peered into the hallway, and, saw this woman with no legs, in one of those magician's assistant-like outfits, crawling around in the hallway.. She had bloody stubs where her legs were supposed to be...

At the kitchen table, no one seem phased by this....Cindy's Boyfriend said that he was going to get something from the basement.. He then got up and walked to the door that lead to the basement stairs, and, started to go down them...

 I looked over at my Husband, and, all of a sudden, his faced morphed into this demonic-looking, zombie face.. He started to get up out of his chair, and, I bolted towards the basement door which lead to the basement stairs..

Cindy, then, ran up to me, and, she had morphed, too... Her flesh looked rotted, and, she had blood pouring out of her mouth..

Then, I heard a noise coming from the bottom of the stairs, and, when I looked, I saw her Boyfriend starting to charge up the stairs at me.. He also had morphed into a "demonic-zombie".. When he got up the stairs, him and Cindy started to choke me and they were trying to bite me..

I was holding them back by their necks, trying to defend myself from them biting me... It was so INTENSE. The fear that I felt was overwhelming... Then, I said to myself: "On the count of five, I am going to wake up into another dream."

Then, I counted to five, and, when I got to five, I woke up into another dream..

In this dream, I was lying in bed, and, again, I felt like I had to pee really bad... So, I walked to the bathroom.. This time there was a shower in the corner instead of a bathtub..

I sat down on the toilet to pee when the "Evil Husband" came barging through the door with an insane smile on his face... I got up, and, ran towards him to push him out of the way so I could escape...

I remember thinking to myself: "I can't go to the bathroom anymore, because, every time that I do, something bad will happen."

Then, I woke up into another dream.. In the next dream, I was, once again, in bed, feeling like I had to pee... At this point, I started to tell myself to wake up.. I remember rolling around in bed, screaming: "WAKE UP!!" I started to hit things, like the wall, and the bed, struggling to wake up..

Then, the bedroom door opened, and the evil Husband was standing there staring at me like a mad man..

Then, I woke up into another dream.. I was again in bed, and I started to, yet again, struggle, and, scream: "WAKE THE F*CK UP!!" It was then that I started to reach out to my Husband, who was on the floor, and, I was screaming at him: "WAKE ME UP!!" in the dream...

I was trying to hit him, but, when I would reach out to him to hit him, to wake him up, I could only "tap" him on the head.. He wouldn't wake up in my dream..

So for what seemed like hours, I was lying in bed screaming for my Husband to wake me up, and, tapping him on the head..

I was kicking, and, trying to get out of bed to wake my Husband up, but, it was like something was stopping me from getting out of bed.. All that I could do was tap my Husband on the Head, Scream, and flail my legs and arms around...

While I was having this part of the dream, is when I was really hitting my Husband in the head. I was hitting him harder than I thought that I was...

 He woke up from me hitting him in the head and screaming "WAKE ME UP!" at him in my sleep... When I finally woke up for real, I started crying..

I wasn't sure if I was really awake or not.. I had to ask my Husband a series of questions to try and convince myself that I was, in fact, awake for real..

It was so crazy, intense, and vivid! You have no idea!! The fear that I felt in the nightmare was so overwhelming.. And, the false awakenings were so stressful..

Three Older Dreams

HERE ARE THREE DREAMS THAT I HAD IN THE PAST. I DON'T THINK THAT I HAVE PUT THEM IN THIS BLOG YET, SO HERE THEY ARE...

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STARSEED BOOK DREAM

I had a dream about this Starseed book that I had bought a while back.. In my Dream, I was trying to read the book, and, it was all in symbols..
 It seemed really cryptic, with a mixture of symbols, sloppy handwriting, pictures, and, some text... I couldn't understand most of what was in the book, in my dream, but, somethings did catch my eye... I'm not exactly sure what it said but I know it was about God or a God... I don't know... It was a strange dream...

DOG HEADED ANGEL OF DEATH

I had a dream that was about my Grandma (who passed away more than ten years ago) and the angel of death. The angel of death had a dog's head and a buff human body of a man, and huge white wings... 

He was training a smaller angel that looked just like him how to be an angel of death. I saw him a few times in my dream. First time I saw him he was a huge shadow. Then I finally saw him for what he was when he was training the other angel...The thing that got to me was the dog head. It reminded me of one of the Egyptian gods you see painted in the Egyptian tombs or what ever.

DISTORTED FACE

I had another dream that I was driving and I looked in the review mirror and in the mirror, I saw my eyes roll back into my head and my face became distorted and kept morphing into weird creepy faces...I eventually realized I was dreaming and told myself to wake up but I just woke up in another dream as usual...

Haha. Vampires.

Haha. Vampires.

I was at a party-type deal - When this young, teenage, boy walks up to me, and bites me on the neck. I freaked out like "What the f*ck are you doing?" He said that I was now a vampire, and I just laughed.. 

Throughout most of the dream, this young man tried to teach me about "vampire things".. I just laughed it all off.. I thought that vampires were ridiculous..

Then, there was this older gentlemen.. He looked like the evil alien guy from MIB 3 and he sounded like him, too..

But, he looked more like a human... He kept making threats towards me, but I can't remember what those threats were. But, I had the feeling that he wanted to "get rid of me"..

Somehow we ended up getting him into trouble and "locked up" so to speak.. The teenage boy said that we needed to go get some "information" from the older man, now that he was locked up..

When we got there (where the old man was locked up at), the old man told me that I was going to "pay" for locking him up.. He grabbed my hand or something and pulled me closer to him, and gave me some sort of warning..

Then, we left and my skin started burning! It was almost as if someone poured acid on my skin!!! My skin was RAW.. Almost like the most intense and worst sunburn ever! The vampire boy and I went to this house and were trying to figure out a cure... 

I still thought that this whole thing was ridiculous.. Then, the Old Man appeared.. He had broke out of prison, or something... He was making threats and laughing.. Then, he pulled me over to him, and I remember seeing myself in his arms from the boy's point of view I guess.

The older man was holding me with one of his arms over my shoulder.. I had my hand grabbing onto his arm that he had over my shoulder.. Then, he took a dagger and pierced it through my neck, and through my hand that was holding his arm.. It's hard to explain..

Either way I had a dagger go though my friggin' neck and hand.. Then, he let go and I just looked at him like "What the f*ck is your problem, dude?" and He was laughing... I was pissed!  I don't really remember much after that... Stupid Stuff.... Ugh...

Goggle Eye Man & Men In Suits

Goggle Eye Man & Men In Suits

I had these dreams a little while back.. I thought that they were kind of interesting.. So, I guess I will share them.. I have included a (crappy) drawing that I did of the "Goggle Eye Man" from my first dream.. I have had alien dreams a lot before, but never usually along the lines of MIB.. I don't know if these guys in my dreams were supposed to be MIB or not, but, they had the whole black suit get up going on... Anyway, here are the dreams:

It all started: I was at this outdoor concert thing, sitting in a lawn chair.. There where people everywhere, but, I was sitting by myself..

Then, this guy in a black suit, and, a Fedora, with black goggle-like sunglasses walked up to me.. He had two other men behind him dressed the same way, but, I couldn't really see their faces..

The "black suit, goggle man" walked up to me, looked at me, and, gave me this creepy, huge, smile.. Then, he spoke to me, but, he spoke to me telepathically!! He said: "Hi Rachel. Where have you been?" Or, something like that..

I freaked out when this happened and took off running, screaming: "NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!".. Because, it really freaked me out.. Telepathy really freaks me out in real life..

Then, I got into a car and drove, and, I ended up pulling up in this parking lot.. Then, two cars pulled up on each side of me..

In the car on the left, there were two men.. But, they had no eyes.. It was like their eyes were sown shut..

In the car on the right side, was that "black suit, goggle man".. They all got out of their cars and kept trying to get into my car..

I was freaking out, and, I was having trouble finding the buttons to lock the car doors..

Then, I felt like I had to make a decision.. Do I go with the "eyeless people", or, do I surrender to the "black suit, goggle man"?

I ended up giving up and rushing to the car with the "black suit, goggle man", because, the "eyeless people" freaked me out even more..

Then, all of a sudden.. I was in this field with a different man, who was also in a suit. But, he looked more human..

Apparently, we were in Florida.. He said that we had to cross the field and take shelter in this restaurant..

So, we get to the restaurant, and, we separate.. I go into this extra room in the restaurant, and, this middle aged lady followed me.. She started talking to me, but, I can't remember what she was saying..

I was looking at this picture of young man laying on his stomach.. He had a bunch of symbols on his back..*Spiral-like symbols..

The lady started to tell me about the picture, and, as she was telling me about it, she was running her fingers along the lines of the symbols on the young man's back..

Whenever she followed the lines on the symbols, it would leave a yellow light trail..

Then, once she was done, a cloud popped up. And, in the cloud, were the faces of all of the famous, supernatural, serial killers. lol..

After that, the dream is kind of blurry.. It was weird.. But, the beginning of the dream, when that dude spoke to me telepathically, that freaked me out the most!!

Here is the second dream: Men In Suits

After that "Goggle Eye Man" dream, I actually had another dream about men in suits... I don't remember any spirals in that one though.. It was the weird dream that I was completely calm the whole time, when a bunch of weird stuff was happening..

It started out where I was in this huge garage, and, there were men in black suits and normal looking people everywhere.. Then, this man in a black suit called me to come over to him.. He told me to put on this hospital gown thing.. So, I did..

I sat down on this bench next to him, and, I saw other people in gowns sitting around me.. One of them looked like a kid that I knew from Grade school, but grown up..

Anyway, The man handed me and everyone else on the bench a little piece of paper... He told us to put it on the roof of our mouth and then drink this liquid that was in a little, paper, cup, so the piece of paper would stick to the roof of our mouths..

Then, we all took the piece of paper out from the roof of our mouth, after drinking the liquid.. I noticed red stuff on the piece of paper.. It reminded me of blood.. Then, we handed the paper back to the man in the black suit and he took it.. I wasn't freaked out at all..

Then, for a large portion of the dream, I was in this house with white walls, and, white carpet.. My Husband was with me and we kept walking from room to room, watching this tv in one of the rooms off and on and were enjoying ourselves.. There were men in black suits everywhere.. I felt safe and worry free..

Then there was this one part where some people took me to this car and said something about the MIB and that was the only time that I got a little nervous, lol.. They wanted to drive me somewhere.. I remember getting in the back seat. The seats in the car were leather-like and black..

But, then I was calm again and I walked into this other garage like place, and, there was this chick with blond hair.. For some reason, I thought that she was me. But, at the same time, I knew that she wasn't me, because, I was watching her..

Then, this snake-like-alien looking thing started slivering all over her and wrapping around her neck.. She started to kind of dance with it.. Then, she started to freak out, as if the snake was tightening itself around her neck too much.. But, I was just completely calm and watching her and the snake thing... I felt so peaceful.. It was crazy.. lol.

But, I wish that I could feel peaceful like that in more dreams...

Anyway, there they are..

Not Alone

Not Alone

I caught something staring at me at the foot of my bed one night.. It was the strangest experience ever.. At first I wondered if it was sleep paralysis or something, but I could still move.. I'm not completely sure how that works. I mean, I know a little bit about it, but not much... I know that it can cause hallucinations and that you are paralyzed.. Right?

While it was happening, I was fully aware but at the same time I felt very relaxed.. I felt like I was awake, but maybe I wasn't.. I was listening to a show on Coast to Coast AM about the Mafia and I was wearing headphones at the time..

I remember that I could hear everything that the guy was saying through my headphones very clearly.. I got this intense feeling that I was being watched.. I struggled to move a little bit, but I eventually managed to move my head and look at the foot of my bed and I saw this shadow thing standing there staring at me..

Then I just kind of blacked out I guess, because all that I remember after looking at it was laying my head back on my pillow and blacking out then I entered dream land lol.. Also, as this experience was going on.. I was hearing scratching noises, like something was scratching on my closet door..THAT could have been my one of my cats in the litter box, though.. 

Floating, Bloody, Piece Of Paper..

Floating, Bloody, Piece Of Paper..

I had a dream about this floating, bloody, piece of paper about few nights ago.. That was the most intense dream that I have had in a while.. I only say that it was intense, because I was TERRIFIED of that floating, bloody, piece of paper, and it was talking to me.. I don't even know why I was so terrified.. It sounds ridiculous..

I woke up in a panic.. It wasn't even a really vivid dream.. Just an emotional one.. It's a blurry dream, too.. All that I remember was that piece of paper.. And, maybe a man with no face, too.. But, I am not sure.. That man with no face could be a "false dream memory" or something.. 

That image of the faceless man could have been from the dream that I had earlier.. But, there is no way to know for sure.. It's too blurry.. Blurrier than that bloody, floating piece of paper.. His image just randomly "popped up" the same day that I had the dream.. BUT, I didn't see that image until the day was almost over and I was trying to tell my friend about that paper dream.. So, I don't know...

Maybe, my subconscious is breaking through and telling me that I really did have a dream about this "faceless man".. Why else would I remember something like that? He had to of been in a dream or something.. I don't know.. It's all blurry..

(Note: The "Eyeless Person" in this drawing is actually from my Goggle Eye Man Dream.. I have already posted that.. The "Faceless Man" and "Floating, Bloody, Piece of Paper" are obviously from this dream or whatever.)

Drink or Die...

Drink or Die...

I had a HORRIBLE Nightmare last night that I was Dying.. And, the only way for me to live was to drink a lot of Water... 

I kept trying to drink Water, but, I couldn't swallow it! I tried so hard to drink the Water, but, I just couldn't get it to go down my throat! I was freaking out!

 After trying to drink Water, for what seemed like hours, I managed to get a couple, little, drops of Water down my throat... I had to force those drops of Water to go down my throat with all of my might!! 

Then, I FINALLY Woke Up in a Panic, and, I was sooo Relieved that it was only a dream.. Phew!!!

"I Am Your Guide."

"I Am Your Guide."

I​ was riding a bike through a field of grass.. 

The grass was short and really green. It was sunny and beautiful outside... 

I came upon a big, silver, windmill and a small, red, barn. I got off of my bike and walked it the rest of the way to the windmill..

Then, I saw my Husband, sitting next to the windmill..

I sat down next to him and we chatted for a little bit, but I can't remember what we talked about..

I then asked him if I was dreaming..

My Husband said: "Yes, you are dreaming... I am your Guide to the next reality or dimension that you will choose to enter."

Then, I asked: "How do I know what dimension to enter?"

He then told me to look ahead and so I did..

When, I looked ahead all that I saw was the field of short, green, grass that seemed to go on forever and a bright sun hovering in the sky..

I told him that I was confused and he told me to "Look Closer".

So, I looked ahead again..

That's when I saw it... The other dimensions flashed before my eyes..

First, there was the green grass field.

Then, it morphed into a huge and endless, dark blue lake and it was night time and the huge, bright, moon was hovering over the lake.. I could see the moonlight shinning onto the lake..

Then, it morphed into a smaller lake with muddy, green and brown, grass behind it and it was almost light out. Thus, the sun was now starting to rise..

Then, it morphed into a dark and gloomy, black-top, road that seemed to be a road that was in the middle of nowhere and it seemed like it would go on forever.. 

There was also a huge puddle in the road and on both sides of the road there was muddy, dark green and brown, grass. It was also pouring down rain...

Then, that morphed into a less gloomy, black-top road, and the sun was out, shining brightly.. 

There was now a tiny puddle on the side of the road and the road was only a little wet... 

On both sides of the road the grass was bright green and moist with dew..

I then told my Husband that I wanted to go into that dimension, and he said: "Okay"

I asked him for a ride because I didn't want to walk or ride my bike down the road because it looked like it would go on for a long time and it was starting to get hot outside..

My Husband said: "Yes" and then a car appeared..

​We got into the car and started driving down the road..

It was so sunny out and as I looked out of the car windows, all I saw ahead was the endless road.. 

When I looked out the driver's and passenger seat windows, all that I saw was a bright green, and grassy, field on both sides.

I rolled down my window and I could feel the wind in my hair..

Then, I looked at my Husband, and he was focused on driving down the road and he didn't look back at me..

It was then that I finally woke up. 

It was a strange dream but it was very vivid and detailed. 

It also seemed very real... ​

GRANDMAMA

GRANDMAMA 

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I was young when my Grandmother died. She was a great lady and I loved her very much. She was always there for me. She taught me so much. We were very close. 

When she was alive, I couldn't imagine life without her.

 I hadn't prepared myself for her death. Even though she was sick and in the hospital before she died,

 I thought she would pull through. But she didn't and it breaks my heart to this day. 

On the night she died I was in my bed asleep. Before I went to sleep I knew she was still alive. I was in complete denial that she would ever die and leave me. My mom went to the hospital to see her that night right before I went to bed. 

When I fell asleep I had this dream. I had a dream that there was this gazebo by a small lake. In the gazebo was my whole family. They were talking and laughing and having a good time. Then I looked over by the lake and saw my Grandma. She looked so sad. 

 I asked her: "What's wrong?" Then she said to me: "I'm going home now." 

After she said that she lifted up the grass as if the grass were a cover. Then she laid down in the dirt and pulled the grass back over her. Confused, I asked everyone at the gazebo 

"Where did Grandmama go?" 

Then my Mother, who had just gotten back from the hospital, woke me up. It was then my Mother told me that my Grandma had passed away. I couldn't believe it. I was devastated. It felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. 

The next day I started thinking about the dream I had the night before. It made me wonder if my Grandmother visited me in my dreams when she passed. She wanted to say goodbye to me. That thought kind of comforted me but at the same time I felt upset. Not just upset because she died. But upset because she looked so sad in my dream. I don't think that she was ready to leave us behind.

I honestly think that she was telling me goodbye in my dreams. 

I often think about that dream, but I also often think of all the good times we had when she was alive. I would give anything to see her again. 

She was an amazing, kind, strong, beautiful, and loving woman.

 I dedicate this entry to her. I miss you Grandmama, so much, and I love you. I will always love you, Grandmama. 

Rest in peace.

Pig Mask Dream

Pig Mask Dream 

I was in this trailer with this kid and my in-laws and Jeff. 

There were huge fish tanks everywhere with bizarre looking fish in them. I was wanting to take the fish tanks home and as I was walking to the door there was a panic.

The little kid started screaming. And one of my in-law's said "Someone is at the door". I was spooked. 

The door had a window with a light colored curtain covering it and I could see the silhouette of a man through it. I freaked and we all ran to the back room.

We heard banging from outside the trailer. We kept going from room to room. This trailer seemed to be growing rooms! 

Then the banging stopped and I told the kid to hide by the side of the bed in the room we were in. 

I walked out into the hallway and looked out the window, and there were these men in pig masks looking through the windows and they started banging on the windows and trailer again.

I ran to make sure that the door was locked and to make sure that no one had got inside. 

Then, I looked out the window and saw a riot going on. People were swinging chains, carrying weapons and shooting guns, and running in the street around the trailer!

I ran back to the room that the kid was in and it was just me and the kid in there.

 I looked into the next room and there was this girl in her underwear hunched down in the dark room and her hair was long and black and it covered her body and part of the floor. She was breathing very heavily.

I was so afraid to go into the room that the girl was in. So I slowly backed away and when I turned around the kid I was with had changed. 

He had black as coal eyes and huge bags and was completely pail and he just stared at me.

 Then I woke up.

Up In The Sky With Aliens?

Up In The Sky With Aliens? 

It all started when my Dad and I were watching this UFO. 

Honestly, it was beautiful, but I was still afraid. 

There were these little lights that created a Ferris wheel type thing.

 And they flowed together like water.

 Then, I was in this room watching this guy and this girl and they were lying on a table.

 The aliens were reptilian-like and they had their hand on the forehead of the guy and girl.

 But the human's eyes' were rolled back into their heads. 

Then, the aliens came up to me and brought me to a computer and handed me books about something strange.

 I can't remember what they were for but they were advanced and confusing books. 

They spoke to me telepathically and told me that I needed to learn this stuff. 

I know the dream doesn't sound all that freaky but it still freaks me out. I HATE having alien dreams so much. I always wake up feeling drained and freaked out.

Wolves

Wolves

I had the most beautiful dream in my entire life a few months ago.

My Husband, and I were in the woods and we were talking to a bunch of Navajo Native Americans.

 The woods were beautiful.

 I looked around and noticed that there were wolves surrounding us.

 I walked deeper into the woods and three wolves got really close to me. 

I felt fear at first but that quickly went away when they came right up by my side and I started to pet them.

 As I was petting them I felt calm, peaceful, and spiritual. The wolves were so gorgeous. 

I felt so happy. I woke up feeling great, amazing. 

A part of me wonders if the wolf was my spirit guide visiting me in my dreams.

 I love wolves. I have a spiritual connection with them. I always have..

 They are absolutely amazing. I wish I would have this dream again and again. It was the best dream that I have had in my entire life!

(For once it wasn't a nightmare. Thank the Gods!) 

PLEASE DON'T STAB ME!!!

PLEASE DON'T STAB ME!!!

I was in this house made of wood and I was hanging out with my husband and some friends that I never knew in real life. 

Anyway, all of a sudden, these "friends" murdered one of their friends right in front of me! 

Then, they turned to me and said that I had to die too so there were no more witnesses. 

I don't know where my husband went at this point. They had a bunch of sharp knives and chased me out of the house.

 I ran to this other house where my husband was at and he was sitting at a table drinking coffee. I ran up to him and told him that there were people out to kill me. 

Just then the killers came busting through the door! They ran over and knocked me and my husband onto the floor and surrounded us. 

They told me that they were going to kill my husband if they didn't kill me. So I begged and begged for them to kill me and leave my husband alone. 

Then they stuck a knife up to my stomach and it was so intense, I was screaming:

 "PLEASE DON'T STAB ME! DO ANY ELSE BUT STAB ME! PLEASE DON'T FUCKING STAB ME!!" 

The fear was SO INTENSE! I was so terrified of getting stabbed. (which I am in real life anyway) 

Then they said okay and took out this huge serine. 

They injected it into my upper thigh and I started to feel really fucked up.

 "You should die anytime now" the killers told me. 

But I didn't die. 

After they left I got up and could barely walk. I'm not sure what happened after that...

Sick, the Angel?

Sick, the Angel?

I had this dream about an angel/demon named Sick. 

She was like an amazon woman, very tall, and she rode a huge white tiger with wings.

 I have dreamed about her twice. It's just something that stuck out to me.

 When I was around her I didn't know how to feel. I felt this overwhelming good presence but at the same time I felt this very negative presence. It was strange.

 What kind of angel is named Sick? lol. It was just the most vivid part of my dreams.

 The first time I saw her I was with a group of people and we where terrified. She was so unbelievably powerful, or so it felt.

 The next day she visited me in another dream and said something to me but I cannot remember what. 

Just out of curiosity does this sound familiar to anyone:? Sick I mean? This dream really got to me and I was wondering why.

~~ A LOOK INSIDE RAE'S LUCID/FALSE AWAKENINGS - WHAT IT'S LIKE ~~

**AM I REALLY AWAKE?**

 **OR AM I STILL DREAMING?**

~~ A LOOK INSIDE RAE'S LUCID/FALSE AWAKENINGS - WHAT IT'S LIKE ~~

"WHAT A MESSED UP REALITY..." 

"WAKE UP NOW!!!!"

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THIS IS MY OWN, RAE BUG'S,  PERSONAL ACCOUNTS AND EXPERIENCES WITH: LUCID DREAMS AND MULTIPLE FALSE AWAKENINGS. 

THE FRUSTRATION!

 READY?. HERE IT GOES....

I have a love/hate relationship with Dreams. I have really, really VIVID dreams. Most the time they are lucid dreams OR false awakenings, and some times, actually a lot of the time, I will have false awakening and lucid dreams at the same time!  

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ANYWAY, False awakenings are so frustrating!!! I have false awakening dreams and lucid dreams A LOT!

When I lucid dream it's really easy for me. It's weird because I don't try to lucid dream on purpose, I don't even have to try, I just do...When I first started lucid dreaming a couple of years ago it just started to happen. I wasn't trying to lucid dream or anything.

In the beginning, when the lucid dreams started, here is how the dreams went: This is how it all began. And, again, mind you, I never in my life have tried to purposely lucid dream. I just started doing it and I don't know why.

Anyway, In the beginning I would often dream that I was going to the bathroom and when I tried to shut the bathroom door it wouldn't shut. And the bathroom door shuts just fine in real life. When this happened in my dreams I started to think that it was suspicious that the door wasn't shutting and I eventually realized that I was dreaming whenever the bathroom door wouldn't shut. Then, that's when I started to have some fun and lucid dream.

The whole bathroom door thing went on for a while but eventually I didn't need the bathroom door to realize that I was dreaming. Now days when I am dreaming all it takes is just something abnormal and I quickly realize that I am dreaming and begin to lucid dream.

For example: In one dream that I had about a month ago, was about me and my mother and we were sitting in the living room together . Then, while my mom was sitting next to me, she started smoking marijuana!!! It was then, instantly, I knew I was dreaming because my mom doesn't smoke marijuana at all!!  Then, I just started doing whatever I wanted. 

Because I knew that I was dreaming.  

One more example of this happened just the other night.

I was dreaming that I was in my room getting ready for bed, when I noticed a fish on my pillow. I got up close to it and noticed that the fish's gills were still moving. I thought to myself:

"Hey, what is this fish doing here? How is it still alive? Oh, I must be dreaming. This is a dream."

Then I put the fish in the tank with the other fish and started to stare at the fish. I made them change colors as they swam around. I decided to have a relaxing dream and just watch the fish and and make them change into pretty colors..

I even had some music going and I was also making the fish swim along to the music. Then after that I started drifting back into a non - lucid dream state and started dreaming about some stupid conversation with my husband..hehe..Then, I woke up... into another dream. But that's another story..

 Like I said, It only takes little abnormal things in my dreams to make me quickly realize that I am dreaming. It just happens.

But a lot of the time when I am lucid dreaming I am also having multiple false awakenings. False awakenings are so stressful.

  

Here is an example of a common, annoying, false awakening(s) dream that I have often.

I will be doing something like hanging out with my husband then all of a sudden, I wake up in my bed, but I don't wake up for real, I wake up into another dream.

Then, I will dream again that I get up out of bed and I am hanging out with my husband and then,out of nowhere,he will say something off the wall. Then, that is when I realize that I am dreaming.

I will tell myself to wake up and I do wake up, but in another dream! In the dream that I just woke up in, I will  usually go to my husband and ask him if I am dreaming or awake. He usually says "You're crazy, you're awake, duh!" or something to that extent. But even after he says that I still wonder if I am really awake or not. 

Then, something abnormal will happen and I will realize that I am still in a dream and I will start doing something lucidly, like walk around the house or go outside. 

Then, out of nowhere I wake up, but again I wake up into another dream!!! 

And this goes on and on and on, and most the time I just get frustrated that I keep waking up into other dreams and I can't wake up for real. In my false awakenings I usually end up screaming to myself, in my head,  "WAKE UP!!" over and over and I struggle to wake up and even when I tell myself to wake up, I still find myself waking up in yet another freaking dream!

By the time I actually do wake up FOR REAL, I wonder if I am really awake. When I finally do realize I am really awake, I am relieved but at the same time I feel so drained from all the multiple false awakenings during the night, all night.

I don't mind lucid dreaming much, it's kind of fun, but false awakenings..ugh...they drive me crazy.

I almost feel like I am cursed sometimes. Lol.

The only time I have good dreams are when they are only just lucid and not false awakenings. When I just have plain old lucid dreams I have fun. I never wake up feeling refreshed after false awakening nights. Like I said I either lucid dream, have false awakenings or a combination of  lucid and false awakening dreams often. This has been going on for about 1 to 2 years now.

There you have it.. That's what it's like waking up in another Reality...

1st Lucid False Awakenings

1st Lucid False Awakenings

I had a kind of a lucid dream last night. It was weird. 

It all started: 

I would wake up (in my dream) and start doing my daily tasks.

 Then, all of a sudden, I realize that I am dreaming and I start controlling what I did. 

I even flew! It was amazing! 

Then, out of nowhere, I would wake up again (in my dream) and start doing my daily tasks..

 Then, all of a sudden, I would realize that I was dreaming again and I would start to have fun. 

And this went on forever it seemed, over and over!!! 

I think this might have been my first lucid dream. I might have had one a long time ago that I don't remember or that I can't think of right now.

(This was one of my first Lucid/False Awakening Dreams that I ever had. I have had many, many, more since then)

Awful Dream

Awful Dream 

I had a very traumatic and disturbing dream one night! I woke up wanting to cry. I'm not going to go into too much detail because some of it was too gory so I wont explain those parts.

 Needless to say, this dream was weird and unrealistic yet somehow realistic and very vivid. It may not sound like it to you as I type this down as traumatizing but it was for me. I am seriously freaked out. It started:

I was in this house with my friends and husband and behind the couch in the living room was a hallway. I was walking through the hallway when the whole hallway blew up!!!! And I managed to jump out of the way and for some reason the roof was off the house and I saw a HUGE ship hovering over us! It was so scary! It looked so real. It went away and we kind of stood in the living room in shock.

Then, we all packed some stuff up and moved to the woods. The ship would follow us where ever we set up camp and we would have to run. My husband and everyone was telling me that the aliens wanted to murder me.

Then all of a sudden I was in my "dream apartment" ( I say dream apartment because when I dream of our apartment its a little different than real life) and my stomach was sticking out a little and I found out I was pregnant! I was sooo excited I told everyone. I was so freaking happy! For this part of the dream I mostly went around telling people for a while. 

Then my stomach got bigger and bigger really quick and I looked really pregnant. Everyone kept commenting on how big I was and how they too were excited for the baby.

Then, this is were it really got to me, I had to go to the bathroom and when I did I had a miscarriage. I started balling and crying and begging my mother for fertility medication so I can try to have another kid. I was so desperate to have another kid. I was so heartbroken. It was so real. That's when I woke up.

Can't Escape Evil

Can't Escape Evil 

I had this dream where my husband and I were in this huge mansion but it was horrible looking. 

Things were falling apart and there were boxes everywhere. 

We peeked around into a room and we saw this DEMONIC looking woman talking to another man. 

Then, all of a sudden, she saw us!

 My Husband, and I took off running as fast as we could. But as I was trying so hard to run away, the demonic woman kept grabbing my feet and pulling me all the way back into the room. 

But, then, I escaped and I kept running.. Then, she grabbed me again and dragged me across the floor!

 I managed to get away for a 3rd time and started screaming for my Husband.

 But he just kept running and ignoring me!!!!

 I tried so hard to get away and each time I would get so close to getting away, she would grab me and pull me back. 

The final time she grabbed me she wrapped her arm around my throat, then I woke up.

Supernatural Show Dream

Supernatural Show Dream

WARNING! THIS DREAM IS VERY DISTURBING... READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Okay here is the dream. First off there is this show called: "Supernatural" over here. It is a show about two guys who fight off demons and try to stop the Apocalypse . At least that's what I have gotten from it... I don't really watch it and I have only seen a few episodes... Anyways here goes the dream: 

This dream was about the guys from the tv series, "Supernatural". I don't know their names though so I will just say "guys" or guy" or whatever...

 It all started when I walked into this warehouse-like room and saw the guys from supernatural. One was all evil looking and the other one was normal and the normal one suddenly ran up to me and picked me up and ran out the door.

 But as he was running with me, before we could get out of the door, I looked over and saw the other guy twitching and his eyes were rolling into the back of his head and they were turning black.

 I was freaked out. I remember thinking, "Oh my god, this is it, I am going to die!!!"  It was so intense. When he put me down I realized that I was bleeding..down there... I thought that I had started my period and got really embarrassed and apologized to the guy. 

Then, the guy said. "No, you are giving birth to Lilith " I freaked out again.

 All of a sudden there was blood everywhere coming from me. I know, gross right? Then through out the whole dream I was fighting off demons with the guy and one of the demons wanted to father my baby.

 And the whole time we were fighting off demons I was still giving birth.... I was just walking and running around in labor and bleeding everywhere... 

We ended up banishing the demon that wanted to be the father of my baby, too... Among other creepy demons... or what ever.

 And also, the whole dream I was still giving birth. Let's just say it was very bloody and gross...

 I woke up before I even had the baby, or "Lilith" or whatever!!

 It was fucking crazy and intense!! I didn't even tell you the whole dream. There was just too much going on in it to tell it all. I woke up feeling so wierded out, lol. Then I went back to sleep and had another dream that I barely remember... And that's it... Crazy, right???